Every Day is Exactly the Same; There is No Love Here and There is No Pain
I have added some canned tuna into my diet. Monday was interesting, I wasted the entire day at work doing nothing but playing some stupid web games. It appears that food alone is not going to fix my ADD problems. The next day I woke up and felt bad. Not quite a physical or emotional illness, but just bad. So I took the day off. Apparently, if left alone without interruption, I can sleep for up to or over 16 hours in a day. It didn't help that I was up around 4am the night before.

I had been playing Starcraft recently. I decided to download it after watching videos of it on the internet. It is apparently a competitive sport in Korea. Tuesday, after waking up around 8/9pm, I promptly un-installed the game from my computer and proceeded to waste the rest of my sick day doing nothing of importance. Just another day...

I said to myself last night that I was tired of this body, and tired of living in this existence. I wanted to see the universe for what it really is. I was, and still am, tired of living this existence and want to move on. I told myself that I knew I can change my life and how I feel emotionally by my thoughts, and I know it is possible. However, I want to get away from all of this. I am sick of this dysfunctional body; something just feels out of place about the human body in general. There has got to be something better out there, I see and feel nothing but pain here. Why is life so difficult for so many people? Something is just not right.